Hi. This is me, Babi. You chose me to come into this world. So you know me, all about me already. You are a higher soul and so how can I dare to introduce myself to you. You, actually are showing me who I am.
You know that I have not been able to connect to you yet, in the way the world expects an expecting mother to, with her unborn baby. I don't call myself your mother or claim you as MY baby. Who am I to do that, when I know that we don't bring life into the world, We don't even have the capacity to create life. Life chooses us to do this. We cant even dictate our breath. An energy far more powerful than us does it for us. So don't ever worry that you will have a possessive mother who will claim her possession of you.
I am sorry that you have been witnessing a lot of violence already. Much to my shame I have not been able to provide you the happiness and peace and comfort that you deserve. Like we all did. I have not been able to protect myself also from the wrath of this violence. There is no peace for me only, how do I give it to you. Everyday there pops up a new reason for unhappiness, a new reason that pushes me into sadness and depression. I am trying very hard, but failing each time.
I hope when you chose me for the most important journey of yours, you had thought well beforehand. I may be a beautiful, pure and honest soul, but my circumstances are anything but that. My life is more like a war-zone. Sometimes I fight with others and sometimes I fight with myself.
I never wanted to bring a life into this world which is so full of fights, quarrels, bickering, accusations,shouting, yelling and such things. I have always felt a pull towards the Buddha. I have always wanted to laugh, jump, run, dance, remain happy and positive. But you know that I have never ever experienced a life like that. Not even today. I try nevertheless. So please come into this world with a heart full of forgiveness. I will need that from you always.
I never had a smooth mother-daughter relationship with my mother. I don't even know how that feels. I have only seen it in others and found it very alien and annoying, because I never experienced that myself.
I hope and will try always, consciously, to be your best mate. You will always find a great listener and a guide in me. You will always find in me someone to laugh with and crack your pjs. A great girl to grow up with. That's what I give to everyone and that's why people come to me...
You know that I have not been able to connect to you yet, in the way the world expects an expecting mother to, with her unborn baby. I don't call myself your mother or claim you as MY baby. Who am I to do that, when I know that we don't bring life into the world, We don't even have the capacity to create life. Life chooses us to do this. We cant even dictate our breath. An energy far more powerful than us does it for us. So don't ever worry that you will have a possessive mother who will claim her possession of you.
I am sorry that you have been witnessing a lot of violence already. Much to my shame I have not been able to provide you the happiness and peace and comfort that you deserve. Like we all did. I have not been able to protect myself also from the wrath of this violence. There is no peace for me only, how do I give it to you. Everyday there pops up a new reason for unhappiness, a new reason that pushes me into sadness and depression. I am trying very hard, but failing each time.
I hope when you chose me for the most important journey of yours, you had thought well beforehand. I may be a beautiful, pure and honest soul, but my circumstances are anything but that. My life is more like a war-zone. Sometimes I fight with others and sometimes I fight with myself.
I never wanted to bring a life into this world which is so full of fights, quarrels, bickering, accusations,shouting, yelling and such things. I have always felt a pull towards the Buddha. I have always wanted to laugh, jump, run, dance, remain happy and positive. But you know that I have never ever experienced a life like that. Not even today. I try nevertheless. So please come into this world with a heart full of forgiveness. I will need that from you always.
I never had a smooth mother-daughter relationship with my mother. I don't even know how that feels. I have only seen it in others and found it very alien and annoying, because I never experienced that myself.
I hope and will try always, consciously, to be your best mate. You will always find a great listener and a guide in me. You will always find in me someone to laugh with and crack your pjs. A great girl to grow up with. That's what I give to everyone and that's why people come to me...
